some days are good and some days are bad. but what about all those days that arent either? today was a day. not bad, but not great. so what was it? just a normal, everyday kinda day.

ray made a good point in class.. for once.. “we are only consious of the times when we are losing. we don’t realize how much we are winning moment by moment.” this really struck me. i feel like i take everything for granted and really focus on how poorly im doing which make me forget all the good i have in my life. i’m healthy, im loved by my family and by my amazing fiance and i have a few good friends who i love and i feel love back from, and i’m alive! jesus. how often do people forget to thank god that they are alive and just breathing. as hard as things get, its always good to look back on the simplistic notions. and thats one that shouldnt be forgotten. i am alive and thats more than some people can say(they can’t in fact say anything bc they are dead.)

but i guess my point with this day, today, this average, normal day, is that i’m alive. and regardless of how good or bad my days are, they are still my days and as they are numbered, i should be just thankful i have them. and thankful i can enjoy them. and love in them. and hate in them. and feel anything in them.

in retrospeck, today, i guess, was a pretty good day.(i mean how bad can i day be when the first hour of being awake is filled with nothing but pure love. i got to wake up to kisses on my forehead and a sweet boy telling my how beautiful i am, so i have no right to complain.)

i have a feeling the vitamins are helping too… b&d, not such a bad idea.