i want to leave. i want to travel. i want to go far away and see new things and never worry about what im not doing because im so busy doing things that i am doing.

wantwantwant.

i need motivation. i need money. i need to try and be happy.

needneedneed.

i am alive. so thats one positive. the world isnt run by overlords from another planets. also good. mars isnt a threat to humanity which makes me feel better.

i should go work on my scifi essay. but im just so busy feeling unfulfilled. SOMETHING IS MISSING AND I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHAT IT IS SO I CAN FIND IT AND FEEL WHOLE. fuck.