its been a really long time since i could actually say i’m proud of something, or since i have even felt any sort of pride in myself. so the fact that i am proud of myself and where i am and what i’ve been doing, is really super.

i’ve been writing a lot more and have a few interesting things started. i made my dad cry with one, so that’s got to mean i’m doing SOMETHING right.

my family is so good to me (and i include ian in this, since he is my very closest family member) they are so supportive no matter what and i think thats whats helped me change. my family, people at work, and some friends have just been really good to me lately. i have felt warmer inside. maybe my inner snow is melting. goodbye seasonal depression (for now)

its nice to feel like things are going right for a pessimist. optimists must have it made. and yes, i am categorizing myself and it’s ok.

i need to have my own life and stop worrying so much about what everyone else says. so i’m trying that out.